Today, I don't feel too encourage or motivated to motivate others but rather today I need some encouragement. There are so many opportunities presenting themselves day after day but yet I still feel empty. The pressure to always be great is overbearing. Today i had an opportunity to be one of Allan Grays Fellows and mum was so excited (considering how far I've come) which is understandable but once I realised that I missed my deadline she stopped speaking to me immediately. She wants so much for me and I love her for that but I feel like I'm always going to be paying for the mistakes of my past. I don't want any regrets I want to be the me that I am now. The me that accepts everyone as they are that, takes the time to understand and the one that loves. I don't want to be trapped... regret is the worst thing. The best way to describe regrets is as things of your past gripping you in your present.
It's been so busy. You don't even see the days that lie before you. haha. But I always tell myself that there is somebody out there that will always have it better and somebody who will have it worse than you.
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